I am intrigued by the idea of lens less photography. I love the simplicity of a light-tight container, with a small hole that allows light to form an image on photographic paper inside. There’s no lens to look through, no viewfinder. The long exposure times capture magical, dreamlike images. Time is imprinted in silver crystals. My homemade pinhole cameras are part of the process. They each have their own point of view and time factor that adds to the mysterious results. I process the negatives in a traditional darkroom and use historical and alternative processes to make my prints. I also use a digital pinhole camera, a zero image pinhole film camera, an enlarger and a scanner as my cameras.
I will always remember seeing my first image as it floated up in the chemicals. It was a four minute exposure of a doll from my childhood my mother had sent me. My vague memory was not of the doll but of photographs of me with the doll. Photographs contain memories that we have forgotten or at least vaguely remember. Later capturing that illusive aspect of memory would become an important focus of my work.
I have always loved photographs, visual memories of the past. I am the keeper of my family photographs. I also collect photographs others have thrown away. These images to me are a precious fragment of another time. But memory can be distorted with the passage of time. Other memories fade away or cannot be recalled. A photograph can be a clue but it does not tell the whole story. Sometime it's not what we remember but how we remember it.
This is why I am a photographer - a memory collector. Memories of my past, people and places, memories of faded dreams, memories of flowers, birds and the sun as it crosses the sky. It takes time to gather them up. When I make a photograph it feels like a meditation, being in the moment, counting the time for each exposure in seconds, and minutes; sometimes waiting days and months. Developing and printing also takes time, in the darkroom or in the sun. I am the memory in my photographs and I hope to hold on to it as long as I can.
"We don't see things as they are, we see things as we are"
~ Anais Nin